Confused feelings or Emotional?

I'm pretty emotional these few days.
Especially after I went to visit my grandpa.
I should have visited him more often.

He still is strong n healthy despite his age.
But when I c his backview while he walked infront of me with a hunched back, my heartached.
I dunno y but I know I love my grandpa lots.

It beings back alot of of past memories when I saw my cousins all grown up now.
I still remembered the small hands I held last time and some refuse to slp w/o me carrying them.
It seems like yesterday.
Now they are able to drive me out for shopping, and bring their gfs back to call me jie..
A bigger family now.
I wan the family to grow bigger and bigger not any lesser.
I tell myself one day I want my grandpa to carry my kids and having my kids to run to him and say "I love u, great grandpa".
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Today I had been wondering, how long can friendship really last?
Being on earth for 20over yrs, so much pple come, go, stay in my life.
Some friends had been always there for me..
Some disappoint me..
Some come n go..
Some come n go and come again..
Some never come but when they need u, they come to u.
Some cos of somethings, somebody, some factors changed.
Some was close but suddenly distance.
Some distanced but suddenly close.
Some r geograpically far but close to my heart.
Some staying near but makes me feel so far apart.
Some although didnt keep contact but when they know I gt prob, they r the first to step out.

What I can say is, I treasure whoever whom had past by my life - Be it good or bad.
Cos I believe before it turns bad, there're bond to be good times.
Even if it doesnt have any good times, at least u r part of my growing up life.

I love u all and I wanna be loved - Yes I do.