For u, u and you

Sometimes I get so frustrated at myself.

~ I had to give up something for another. 

~ I always change my roster for other people. 

I wanted to go MEL. But I can't.

I had to choose between my Jer's twins 1 yr old party and meeting Lian in MeL.

I wanna do both but I cant. Sigh. 

Come to think abt it. 

The reason I had been changing my roster is always becos of u, u or u. 

~ Change to help others to attend functions or studies. 

~ Change cos of parents

~ Change cos of friends

~ Change cos of certain events like, birthdays, weddings or baby showers. 

NOT that I am not willing to. 

I love to attend and be there at certain places at certain time. 

But.. Sometimes I feel I do wanna do something for myself. 

N most imptly, I HATE to owe pple favors and HATE begging pple and SICK of pple breaking promises. 

I felt I've lost Queenie somewhere in the journey of growing up.

Some part of Queenie I guess. 

I felt stressed and tired of explaining. 

Anyways, I am now trying my best to fit in all the schedules. 

*NOT accordingly to ranking :) 

~ I want to go Milan or London next month and NOT frankfurt.

~ I want to go MEL to meet Lian, Lester, Cheok, Siti and Eric

~ I want to have a weekend off to go on a short trip with my besties..

~ I want to have a break to go KTV with Lynn, batchie Shirley, meetup with X*Ling and Anthony.

~ I wan a chill out session with Ann Nee jie and Cindy.. 

~ I wanna meet Maggie for our postphoned buffet!!

~ I wanna meet Ching, Char, Vivi, etc etc.. My darling gals in short!

~ I wanna go Jakarta or Hongkong cos I miss my Little Lover FuLin and Kenny Mummy. 

Did I miss out anything?

Shit~ If I didn't list all out, I didn't realise I've got so much to doooo.. 

Dear all. 

Please do remember that Queenie really loves to meet u all and had been trying to fit in all schedules. 

Gimmi time :) 

Misses u.