Showed-hand

I "showed-hand" to 2 person 2 days ago.

All these while, I was being taken granted for.

I give. I forgive.
Being misunderstood. I swallowed.
So many times, So many people, Take my kindness for weakness.
Used me again and again.
I'm so sick and tired of it.

One.
I told X I might be in danger cos I'm out to save my friend.
In case anything happen, please help me call for help.
Well. X told me to call police for help. X is not superman.
No time to help.

Two.
Y is worst.
Everytime I show concern. Ask hows your day.
I was being "entertained".
Y did me wrong, Hurt me badly.
I choose to forgive.
Cos I dont wanna regret hating a person.
Y at times, text me out of the blue and disappeared halfway thru the conversation.
Or jump at me frequently over nothing.
Either that or keeps giving broken promises.

Well, I had enough.
Even if I'm not treated like a friend, the very least, respect me as a human being.
Thats the least u can do.

If not that reflects what kind of person you are.

To have me to show hand at u.
U need certain standards to reach that limit.

I'm totally disappointed and hurt by both of u.
Totally disgusted.

I come to a conclusion.
I need to practise what my gf told me.

From now on,
Respect and trust needs to be earned. Not given.