Realise..

After all the months of crying..
Slowly, I came to realise alot of things..

KNowing the true isnt that bad after all - although truth hurts.
At least I know what had happened and whatz happening.
Not like some, still being kept in the dark.

Actually, no effort was needed to find out the truth. I didnt even tink of finding things out.
I just felt, becos pple felt I shlnt deserve such treatment. Hence chose to tell me the truth..
Thanks too all.

N one more thing I realise I'm very fortunate is..
I've got friends.
The number of gd frds u have will show what kind of person u r.
Some, which I had not contacted so long...
Some, which had no grumbles at all listening to me..
Some, which I had neglected during these times..
Some, which I not very close with in the past..

Chose to listen to me or tok to me for hrs (When u can choose to watch tv show/choose to slp)
Console me... ( When u have better things to do.)
Be there for me anytime.. (When u too, have yr own stuff to handle)
Call me anytime when I needed someone to talk to.. (Even when busy @ work)
Some even, tell me their own past sad history to let me know, I'm not alone (even thou I know it hurts to bring u their unfortunate past)
For trusting me, my character n my personality.

I've very very touched friends, Please know I am..
I'm sorry if i reply late to yr concern msges or reject u all for outings.
I oso dunno y suddenly I so anti-social.. I tink I need to be alone n sort out my tots.

Actually, Blood is really thicker than water.
No matter whatever nasty things U did..
No matter how bad u r..
No matter what..
Family will still help each other..
It was proved in everyday news, movies, reality..

Anyway, for me.. My parents taught me this -
They can only guide us how to become a gd person.
Its u whom decide what u'll become and how u want to lead yr life
Whatever u do, take responsible of it.
When pple accuse u, ignore it cos u cant stop what pple say.
As long as yr conscious is clear, its more than enough.

Time will ease my hurt i'm going thru...
But time doesnt help if yr conscious is not clear..
Time will only reveal more truth n guilt will live with u forever..

So, lets all live a guilt - free life and stay conscious clear.
U'll be a happy person and friends will slowly come to u..

A BIG thank you to all my friends and a BIG hug to all.