Another sleepless night..

Hmmm,
I tink I know y am I so affected n always cant sleep when back in SIN. Its cos every corner of my room is filled with memories.
I heard alot of stories in my workplace abt divorces, cheated, liar, flings, re-marriage, same sex attracts, bullies, fakers, bitches - so common. I hate all, who loves them anyway?

Suddenly like so much things happen - all in one go. At times, i just feel like going for a long long flight n just dun come back. Cos whenever i'm back, problems ahead.

I nearly go out to my mum n cry my heart out. Cos I just need a shoulder to lean on. I chg my mind. I call Meow Meow instead. Cos I know she wldnt ask wat happen, she wld just let me cry. When its time to tell her, i'll. Thanks friend.


In Feb "shape" magazine, I read smt which I freak out. It says,
Symptoms to take note:
If u have, Insomnia, Melancholy, loss of appetite = It could be Depression!!
If symptoms that persist for at least 2 weeks may signal depression, a disease that affects 6.2% of women aged fr 20-59.
Wats the risk?
Everything fr low self-esteem to hormonal changes increases it risk; depression can also be triggered by a specific experience, such a loss of a loved one.

To access it with a test: http://www.ndmda.org/
To be exact according to the website, prolonged sadness or unexplained crying spells,significant changes to appetite and slp patterns, inability to have interest in former interest, social withdrawal, irritabilty, anger, worry, agitation, anxiety, inability to concentrate, indecisiveness..
Dont belittle it, cos my grandma past away cos of having depression.

I tink this yr is gg to be a bad year for me again. Watz new?!
Nvm, at least a happy thing is I've slim down.

In life there's UPs n DOWNs. But my life is down, down, down. However, I always believe it'll go up again-I Hope.

Till now, I still hate u - For pestering the one I love. I believe in Karma.

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I saw a meaningful card,
How about this..
Lets rewind to the time
before our love story gets complicated.

Or better yet, we could just fast-forward past it.

Let's rewrite the script
so that we can take extra-special care
with each other's heart n feelings..

Lets minimise the dramas
as much as possible
and add in afew extra love scences
just to make sure the relationship
is headed for a happy ending~
where we're wrapped
in deep embrace,
whispering "I'm sorry" and "I love u"
in between tender kisses
and long locks of love..

I hate it when there's tension between us
and just seens to tune out and turn each other off...

All I want is to grow old with u
to watch our lives unfold
and our dreams come true

Now and forever,
all i want is u
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