Human Behaviour and deep in thoughts

Hmmm, Shl be the 5th day away -
being away for so long, alot of stuff had been on my mind.

Actually I come to realise that its human nature to be protective or should I say defensive of ourselves. Anyway, animals have it too. So, I cant blame anyone for doing that.
However, alot of times, things will become very ugly if we r TOO defensive.
Overdose of anything is unhealthy anyway.
Its ok to be protective - cos like what I've said, its normal human behaviour- but being too defensive n refuse to admit wrong will make one unreasonable.

Humans oso blame on others to make themselves feel better.. How true is that?

I believe in this - Never tell lies. Cos, u will need to tell many many lies to cover just that lie. Its so tiring isnt it?
Did I say this before? I tink I did. I need to constantly tell myself this so that I will stay frank n straight forward always - I hate fakers and since I hate them, I cannot be like them.
Just like how we dislikes pple whom zap (bully), tell myself in future, NEVER be like them.

Oh! One more thing I realise. Humans will only start to treasure things after they had lose it. How true is it?
My dad said smt meaningful during Qing Ming festival. He said why need to pray yearly or cry so badly during a funeral when a person is gone? Are u crying cos U havent been treating them well in the past? Or its cos u regret cos u r too busy to show care n concern when they r alive? Or issit cos of yr neglience in noticing the tell tale signs which resulted this?
How many times have u said this? --> Only If I..

Dear colleagues, give u an example. Rem last time we were using the flask for 744? Pple complaint that it doesnt keep the coffee hot. Now, after tryin the new flask, we deem the old one is better alr. So company chg back to the old one again. See? It happens everywhere.

Humans have alot of weird behaviour. Depends on individual how u look at it.
However many a times, knowing too much n too understand a person isnt that gd afterall.

Hmmm, its god whom decide on how a person shl be.
U'll never find someone alike.. It kinda freaky if someone behaves, talks, thinks the same like u? Even twins oso have their differences.
He makes one look NOT as good so that the other one look pretty.
He makes some nice pple so that others look evil.
He makes some tall so that others r short.
He makes some unfortunate ones so to make others realise how fortunate they r.
However, I believe if he had given u some flaws, he will reward u with something else.

For me, I tink god had given me a mission to cheer up and show love to those around me and absorb all the unhappiness, blames n faults.
He also wans me to be an independent person so that I cld show support to whoever whom needs it and to resolve other's and own problems.

Yes, I believe that's wat he wanted me to do and I should do what's appointed.
However, I believe my reward will come one day - He will eventually find someone for me to depend on, to show support and to love me.

When will it be? I will wait.. I'm willing to wait, BUT promise me, bring me to the right person and stop playin jokes on me anymore.

What do u tink u r made for?